Showing posts with label poetry. Show all posts
Showing posts with label poetry. Show all posts
Monday, December 16, 2013
Time Just Gets Away
Happy Holidays everyone!
The usual story for me lately, working and working, both jobs that I love.
Hope your holidays were sweet and restful...
From now on you will find me at Elizabeth Akin Stelling- things are just too busy to run so many sites, thanks for following all these years; it all began in 2008, and has been a great ride!
Peace xoxo
Elizabeth Akin Stelling
Monday, October 21, 2013
Crazy
Busy is the reason.
Have had a ton of things going on. Red Dashboard LLC Publishing is one of the main and good reasons. We just put our first book out-
Click here https://www.createspace.com/4439973 and you'll be able to buy the book! Yes!
Rodney Nelson is one of Cowboy Poetry Press regular contributors. His work is unique. Once an editor himself and now an avid hiker he documents his trails in stanza and into poems.
Working on the next one, a short story collection via an author who also published through the journals I oversee, by M.V. Montgomery.
I have also been busy publishing my own work. Two poems were just picked up by a litmag who puts out a print anthology. There will be a link posted when it goes up.
Hope you all are doing great. I do peek at your sites when I can. Peace.
Friday, August 30, 2013
Seamus Heaney, RIP
I am sure if some of you read this you will feel how I do when I saw so many mourned Steve Jobs, I was sick of seeing peoples blogs and Facebook posts mentioning him. He just did not influence me at all. Sure he did hubs in some ways, but just never crossed my mind to follow him. Maybe some will not even know, but stop for a moment and bow in quiet as I do when a funeral procession drives past me in the car.
A giant has passed away early this morning. I had the opportunity to see him read in Dublin almost 20 yrs ago. I had no idea of his greater influence on the world of poetry, but I seized the opportunity to do something Irish, and I wrote crappy poetry.
Then I saw him in Boston this past February. I knew who he was, read his work. Jim Knowles even mentioned him, and I knew it was time to revisit his work. I had hoped there would be opportunity when hubs and I visit Scotland to swing over to Ireland again, rekindle my longing for its tea and green country side, and the yearning to hear their accents again and catch a glimpse of Seamus sipping tea in an outdoor pub environment. I can dream can't I!
Ireland was one of my dream trips. Three weeks of driving from town to town, turning down the most difficult roads, and feeling the free-est I have ever felt in my life, at the time of course. It of course has lead me to my current path of happiness. My life has in some ways been very painful, but I would never have it any other way. It is who I am.
I will confess, tears do not come for me so easily, maybe years of difficulty I put up a wall that is not easily broken through, but today I felt loss. I know loss more than some, less than many, and tears flowed.
Seamus Heaney I bid you a happy journey back to whence you came. You shared in a good life, surrounded by family and friends and a landscape of so much there are no words. I read that you liked to converse with ordinary folk like me, leaving out praise because you are humble, and liked to talk of paths, childhood, travel, and shenanigans.
I wrote this poem with you in mind, trying to create a piece reflective of your work-
At the Foot of
the Willows
When
it is time, cut no more for me
than
the great oak takes up. Greed
does
not go with us, nor will I ask more
of Earth’s bounty; if you cannot
find
me a place, then I will not pine,
as
winter comes, nor fall to the ground
like
leaves before me, and disappear.
Simply
slice out two or more feet if she’ll spare,
so
my words may breathe from her pages.
My
father once tied his boat
to
peeling birch on rising water,
as
we dodged their spiders. Today
their
quiet markers
still speak to me; as a father
to
his child: of what has come and gone,
what
lay ahead, while we dream
under
the willows which weep.
A
full heart must always carry loss
across
the road to another side,
great
burden of sorrow for those loved—
for those who sit, waiting,
to
be moved again: a heavy job for even the steadiest
of
hands. Six or more will march in ready pace if asked
up
heavy steps, then down again:
When
it is time, cut no more sod near the roots,
than is needed. If you
feel
tiredness replacing a day’s work,
hurry
on, the moon will for a short time light your path:
shovels
can wait, sitting as their shadows dance
effortlessly
leaning, toward new morning.
Beauty
of the towering trees keeps me company.
Winds
howl at my back, I under deep diggings,
at
the bottom of a not too steep hill, as peace
places
a knowing grip.
Rest will come: then we
shall
one by one dream
under her willows which weep.
(photo taken with my cell during the poet laureate talks at AWP 2013 in Boston- it was an honor seeing him for the second time)
(photo taken with my cell during the poet laureate talks at AWP 2013 in Boston- it was an honor seeing him for the second time)
Tuesday, March 26, 2013
Ormand Plantation and Natasha Tretheway
After reading Bellocq's Ophelia by Natasha Trethewey, I began thinking of my own mulatto mother. I read the entire book on the plan to NOLA. Once I checked into Ormond Plantation, and found my way to the room, then the entire place inspired many drafts.
This is also an attempt to load photos from the plantation and tell a story with photos and my poetry. Above is the fireplace view of my huge room. I was amazed at the chamber pot and how the condition was so good. Can you imagine have to use it all night, or even day, and the maids had to empty and clean them. Yeah.
Natasha's book mentions about Bellocq, a white French Creole man born into wealth. He chose to become a photographer, which I am sure was a luxury hobby back then. He made his second hobby going around and photographing prostitutes and life in the opium dens. Many of the girls he found his favorites were light skinned mulatto and creole women. She creates a character for her poems, Ophelia, and writes from a perspective in the Storyville area. Many of the brothels were have said to been good to the women they kept. There is much history on-line about this area of NOLA.
At breakfast the next morning, I imagined Ophelia and Natasha having breakfast with me. I was, totally alone with only my thoughts...
Breakfast
with Apparitions
Ormond Plantation 2013
Grandmother had called me back from the
grave,
on the plane I was introduced to Ophelia
by Natasha, a new poet. After arriving
we met
for breakfast. The breakfast table was
set for
twelve, but I sat at the head nearest the
entrance.
Disturbed by an early morning train and
its
whistle, I had found myself wandering
the halls.
The high back chairs brought comfort to
an
aching back of travel and no means.
Slaves were
hustling about in the kitchen, in the
empty
manor as I waited for others two to
arrive.
Ophelia, still living in the 1800’s came
modestly dressed. I saw her gown of
satin,
almost golden like the surrounding room.
Her skin was no contrast to the dark mahogany
furnishings against the wall. She could
not
smile, and kept her head down toward the
table. It was as though her mind was in
another place. Hardships of Storyville,
circa
1911; seduced by promises of a purse fattened
by French suitors baring expensive
champagne,
and frocks of silk. My wearing pants and
cotton t-shirts with a padded vest may
have
frightened her, as I was a ghost of the
future.
A bowl of fresh fruit, pineapple and
strawberries
would have delighted my father who was
not welcome; his wordy male tongue of
vulgar indecencies was not welcome at
this table.
His navy and tin can recollections were indulgences
would never touch my lips again, they
tasted
much sweeter in my youth.
I wanted Natasha to sit in the parlor after
eating,
to discuss the nature of life in bondage
to a
society of the only true freedom for
people
of color. Women after all had chosen
this
profession for centuries, and had no
other
way to support themselves otherwise. I
heard the staff prattling toward the
table again
and new my time with these ladies was
coming
to a close. My grandmother waited to be
released;
her body would be placed next to her
latest
husband, prayers would be lifted to
follow in
ascension, greeted by cherubs, as in
this
room, covered in gold paint, bodies of
the past
and present, you
knew breakfast had come to a close.
This is a work of prose in progress. I still have many more in my notebook to get into the files. I was so fascinated by the history of where my grandfather called home for most of his life, the people, and most of all those who survived its many travesties. This will be removed within a week or so.
If you have not read Natasha Tretheway's work, you should. The mere mention of her name to a young writer Maurice Ruffin in Boston this February set us to talking for hours. I would love to sit down and talk to her, as I mention in the prose. She has inspired me in so many ways.
Monday, March 11, 2013
AWP 2013- Boston Recap
I am actually too tired to write about things I just spent hours doing for a magazine. I was asked before I left if there was a possibility that a piece could capture the event for an editor/writer friend Val Russel, and of course I said yes.
The whole event was a huge undertaking, for AWP organizers and attendees. I am pooped. But came home with so much under my belt. I made new friends, and hooked up with semi-old ones. Athena and I are planning our next adventure in Seattle, and that's all she wrote. At least for now. I will catch up with my NOLA haunted plantation pics and posts. It is forefront on my mind as I made friends with some NOLA fiction writers, mainly Maurice Ruffin via the Seamus Heaney/Derrick Walcott keynote event Thursday evening, who are a part of Peauxdunque Writers Alliance, say that three times, all of whom were naturally southern friendly, because they consented to having dinner and drinks with us, which lead to a long night. We were invited to an after after party, but tired as we were no was said. If I was only ten years younger!
I also made a connection to more poets out of NYC, and one has coined a new phrase for me 'Literary Band', which now I can share with Flora, my partner in poetry jazz rhyme. The group Rough Magic lead by Cornelius Eady has consented to perform at WAMPP in May out of North Jersey. Yay! I also made friends with a group of Nipmuck Native Indian (north eastern tribe) Poets who have consented to perform in the future and to submit to my Cowboy Poetry Journal. Larry Spotted Crow Mann perform his tribal drum (a sacred honor for his people) and I find it is still popping along with Book of Hooks guitar and violin.
So much, so little energy to keep going...
I will say I have finalized not one, but two new manuscripts that are going out this week; one is for a contest I was just encouraged to try for through Finishing Line Press, and the other I will publish through Red Dashboard Publishing has begun to receive feedback in my email file. Lots of excitement, but there is always dark before the storm, and I am learning to forge my character and reactions according to the fires temperature. All is good and well.
I will post when the article appears, and any other submission I just sent out today.
(photo above is Cornelius Eady and Rough Magic performing at AWP 2013- featuring Cornelius Eady top right, writer Robin Messing top left, and bottom composer/guitarist, Charlie Rauh, and violinist Concetta Abatte. Book of Hooks poetry chapbook and CD's)
Sunday, November 18, 2012
So so Fabulous
Oldies out there, have you ever wondered what ever happened to Fabulous Fabian, well I found him. His name popped in my mind for a curio poem, and I kind of remember his being in movies or .something when I was a tween. He was somewhere between cute and old at that age.
He tucked himself away in Philly all these years, and with a younger woman. Never married until later, as he frequented poetry slams and back alleys until then, oh I am kidding! He still...still has his looks! An idea for a poem draft turns up fascinating things on the internet...shows you how a boy sitting on his stoup draws attention, and that they still were creating boy bands all those years ago.
Just a share moment. If you want to read the site I found, here is more about Fabulous Fabian
The photo above is off one of the beaches we stopped on Oahu, HI on our vacation. I saw a heart from the position I sat in the convertible in the tree stump, palm I presume. I see love in so many things...if you want to use the pic, email me, otherwise No Stealing please...
Thursday, October 4, 2012
What...
am I up too? Lots. So much in the pot, I haven't the time to share.
But fun stuff.
On my way back to New Jersey (driving); Texas, Arkansas, Tennessee, Kentucky, Tennessee, North Carolina, South Carolina, then North again, and Virginia by Friday. Home by the end of the Weekend. Two and a half weeks of pure fun!
I will post more, because I have met some more great bloggers in person, even Jessie Carty the poet mentor/teacher!
Hope all is well and great things come your way! Peace...
(photo taken at The Grounds for Sculpture, Hamilton, New Jersey)
Wednesday, September 19, 2012
See Ya'll In Texas
Me in the sixth grade. I was stylin!
I've been so busy with work and such, no time to write or even food blog. So just a quick hello and I'm in Texas before you know it. Will write more as I settle into family and friends...
Some of my work from 'Avocado Green Kitchen With A Gold Accented Childhood' 2, 4, and 8 were published, so go on over and read it! You'll see my name under 'Poetry' link...
Peace and have a great weekend!
Thursday, September 6, 2012
For You
Farmlady and Thursday Poem Share (poems taken down after a week)...
True Crickets Cry For The End Of Summer
Darn the noisy bugs
out across the wild field
finding their way into the mind
into the corners of many rooms
each of us occupy
now and then mothers gift brass boxes
covered with squares and floral holes
too small for round bodies
to squeeze and wriggle out
filled with pieces of grass and twig
a bad imitation of a world outside
“are you awake” they chirp
to the end of the woods
over big cat owl and frog
woodpecker answers with series of knock
fallen limbs silently decay in their grasp
fall has peeked over a brick wall
noses begin sensing frolic a muck
once in a blue moon chances
for tide ballets and movement
toward other pond shores
scenes of cheese ripening in cellars
grapes on the vine begin bursting with flavor
persistence of the bloom clinging to sunlight
streaming through heavy green canopy
desert plants find rest in the shorter day
winter coats begin to breath
while insects have nuzzled in warmth
few find their way so sound
as a closet left unattended
humorously under broom bristles spiders wait
late summer rutting season begins
vivacious hunger songs glide off antenna and leaf
“answer females” your males are disturbing
precious human sleep!
(above picture is CD label) Cast Iron Tempo: Southern Poetry, Prose, and Song is available for sale. $8 plus shipping and handling! Music by local friend musicians/songwriters/poets has been set to 12 of my poems.
I have sold ten copies so far. Need to get out to more open mics and read before I leave for Texas this month.
Have a beautiful end of the week and weekend everyone!
Tuesday, August 21, 2012
You...
...just really never know someone right?
This is my friend/poet/singer song writer Andrea. Love her style. Free thinker. Fellow Cherokee sister. Mother. And so much more.
We took a trip into Philly on Sunday to explore the burbs and starting a Storytelling and writers group between her south Jersey and my central Jersey digs.
Her and I have been friends for about five years. We met at an open mic her hubs hosted in Collingswood, after being invited by Vito, a singer/songwriter who came all the way up my way for my open mic at the coffee house. Her and I hit it off from the get go. I love her way of thinking.
We had to drag her son along with us, as well as my own kid, but they entertained each other in the back seat. Boys never really grow up you know. After taking Joyel, my son's Liberian African co-worker to have a cheese steak, we were all amused by the local park. Andrea especially. I thought this was an interesting photo op.
During our discussions she challenged me to write a boast. We are exploring ideas to get the group going once we meet. She had wanted to do a photography retreat a few years back, but we discussed how not everyone has the equipment and the cost to cover her time. I think this will be much better and she is always talking about our heritage and old native practices or oral storytelling.
Here is my boast draft-
I, Elizabeth Ann of the Akin clan,
born in the land of sandy loam, pecan, and sage brush
descendants of Scottish poets and Cherokee warriors
tender of pots and child of food and fire stoking women
I daughter of old west pioneers, stand before you,
a modern-day culinarian poet preserving kitchen tradition; orally and fireside feast.
Oceans grow shallow for this earth-stepper
as my feet travel distant lands
by soil of Ireland, Holland, Spain, Korea, and Italy have a I also trodden
through gypsy dances, pagodas, canal drifters, and castles
jewels of experience to turn over in the light of memory
daily I dream of other destinations to feed my desire
to see and know this mystical world is my destiny
I have made mighty music with my fingers on the page
rode bareback and walked rocky trails along great rivers
pursued the prize of motherhood bearing great heirs
taught my native tongue to those in my new north east home
claimed my gold in poetry competitions
won the heart of a mighty king upon third times charm
and returned to tell the tale to those who have ears to hear
Now, I will face the fierce crowd before me
offering up my wit and words
I will take care of what and who are mine
unwilling to be ambushed and backed into a corner by buffoons
or waste my time slinging rattlesnakes across thresholds
I’ll make good on my boast and talk all the louder –
poets will celebrate my actions with rousing cries
shaping my deeds into timeless songs.
I looked up boast and found a few examples to follow...most are my own, a few are not...
Wednesday, July 25, 2012
Whoot Hoot to Feathers
I'm feeling better. I have had a lot of distractions from writing lately, so I decided to go to a dark place, like many artist in history have done. Actually, many people call it resting.
This week I had some tests done, still waiting for the results, and figure it all boils down to resting. I was sick with kidney stones two weeks ago, took a heavy duty antibiotic...we all know what they can do...kill anthrax. This time it almost killed me. Not really, but felt like it. I'm fine.
What really lightened up my drab day...hubs walking in with this weeks Wednesday's US1 filled will Summer Edition 2012 Poetry, Prose, and Flash Fiction. And one was moi!
'A Summer's Kiss', Annmarie Lockhart's favorite! Well, she has tried to submit it for me via some venue's she is part of. I also submitted it to a few. Should have known the ...Jersey kiss line would get'm in the ole puss. Uh huh.
Take a look in US 1- Page 33
NOTE: This was not my fav and one of nine poems submitted, two files, one five and the other four poems. Funny how after you go back to a file and see what they chose, you realize the others just really didn't fit the editors taste. You know, just don't ask me how.
(title relates to: another feather in my cap)
Monday, July 16, 2012
I'm Fine
Matter of fact, I'm freaking great,
and looking for a good time!
What?
Oh you didn't hear me?
The corn is ready, and I'm taking as much as I can carry!
My son and I have been talking about invading a corn field. He wants to drive through, but I want to run. Does anyone else think about this when they pass corn fields? Is it the inner child in us that calls out?
So, I pulled over and went for it...
Have a great week. I will be reviewing a few books this week, so sit back and enjoy your own ride...
Monday, July 2, 2012
GREAT WEEKEND!
Okay, I will stop yelling, but we did have a nice relaxing weekend away from home. Hubs has been taking computer (programming/language) classes the past months. He begins another one next weekend, so he felt it was due to get away and give me some belated birthday attention.
We, well I decided to go visit Hershey, PA; we have wanted to visit and I found out my sous chef Michelle and her hubs William were coming up from Texas. I hadn't seen her in over four years, since my last long visit to Texas. William was our handyman for a few years, so we feel really close to the both of them. Our catering and wine company in Dallas used to employ Michelle. She was great in the kitchen and it gave me a chance to council her off campus as a friend. I met her when I worked for Karen Musa, the director of culinary and hospitality over ten years ago.
The four of us went out for lunch. We picked them up at his sisters house, and a beautiful house I must say! And then we went for ice cream. We weren't so crazy for the 'scoop' place we ate, but it was fun visiting. They are talking again about moving up here. They both can find jobs in their fields, and with his family living in PA, they want to spend more time. She is not so close with her own. I understand that one.
It was nice to see she lost some weight. Yes, she was much bigger. Her mother is Philippine, but her father is Caucasian and is over weight. Her mom rides her about weight, always has since she has always been chubby, and I have told her she will do it when she is ready. It is a life choice to eat right and stay away from fast food like she enjoys. I also have gone back to no or little carbs again. You can't see me, because we decided hubs moved over after we posed, but I have begun to lose more weight. A hard thing to do, but I am going to do it one way or the other.
We enjoyed meeting their family, and were invited to a BBQ; it is an hour and half drive to go back, but hubs said yes. He wants to spend the whole time in their media room. Crazy men, but William I am sure will be right their with him. And a cooler full of wine and beer at their sides! Heh!
William and his family are Puerto Rican, or Newyoricans (NYC Puerto Rican), since he and they have lived in the Bronx most of their lives. Willian moved to Texas thirteen years ago, and the sister moved out here (PA) to get the kids away from the city, and his parents moved with them. Okay way over the TMI limit here...
Check out my poem chosen for the Contributor 11 Series in Vox Poetica ''I Came In With My Eyes Wide Open''
The editor has brought in a new editor, Patrick Stevens, so that they only pick some of the best works, rather than put up all poems from their book authors. Still not sure when Pasquale and my book will be published. Sigh. I hate the waiting game. I did get some good feedback on this poem...
Ooops! I almost forgot the photo submissions! Two to be exact ''Referential Magazine''
Tuesday, May 1, 2012
A Very Cool Spring Day
Rainy Days and the Mundane
Cracking thunder moved across the five am sky
waking me up early today. The window amplified
its peal. Left open after letting my son hang out to
smoke. The neighbor spoke out to him while she too
stood on our patio inhaling tobacco and cool
air before bedtime. And we laughed as he
pretended to jump, ending it all; warned
he would only break his legs, starting at his feet
maybe all the way up in such a way he
would be stuck with Mom Nightingale. A nurse
who might not be so kind to a veteran of
risk taking- a kid who was impatient in memory;
hastily climbing up chairs and tables and ladders, stepping
over slick newspapers to reach the counter, for
a cereal bowl, because hunger slowly streamed in
a childhood window that morning with bird songs.
(We spent one of his age three days in the ER over that broken collar bone...now he is into rock climbing)
I am not sure what we are looking up at in the photo, maybe adverts, in hubs random snap shot of a subway ride while in NYC, but I cut off either side's rider to protect the innocent. Yep, he and I are dangerous suburb mice trying to blend in with fast pace city mice. Which makes me realize why I love Farm Lady's (Over Good Ground) post so much...takes me to a place where I long to be.
I like the city and my surroundings here in Princeton, but I want to go back to rural life of my youth. Hear that son? It's what he (we all do) misses about St. Louis. One minute your in the city mouse mood and next it is a country mouse's life.
This all circles back around to my beautiful view out the bedroom (back patio as well) window. I'm not crazy about the light which comes in when the shades are left up, but the rain, thunder and steady view of lush ever greens takes me back...and inspires.
And we say 'la vie' to National Poetry Month...
Thursday, July 14, 2011
Raw Footage
We survived our family white water rafting excursion on the weekend, but with bumps and bruises (they show up days later); it has taken Mary and I a few days to recover physically and mentally. None the less we are forever changed by what happened, and how we use these situations to grow. I saw this quote on facebook and it fits...
- A truly happy person is one who can enjoy the scenery while on a detour." Author unknown
I consider myself one of those truly happy people.
Today is the 11th year anniversary of my daughters passing. My life forever changed. Really the day she was born, but facets move about in obscure ways.
I woke up extremely early and could not go back to sleep. Something I have not done in a while. Maybe an unconscious awakening, maybe not. I need rest because today I have my homeless 'Homefront' meal project this afternoon. We will cook and package food for at least 90 people who are living in motels around the city, many of them are children.
I discovered this photographer Greg Friedler (mentioned on here once before), a New Orleans born artist who was highlighted in a documentary called Stripped: The Naked Las Vegas. His work is fantastic, and great for some inspiration prompt writing. Last night I decided to check his website for his latest 'Daily Compositions'. In doing so the site offered a link to some of his 'Naked' work. Viewing some of this work, I was inspired to write this for Jessie Carty's Thursday Poem Share.
This 'Mattress' link is my inspiration...Thanks Greg for your wonderful contributions to my life...
A Window Junkie's Next Fix
Eyes bend forward
taking in
and exhale life,
saying goodbye to innocence.
Lips become dry
turning tables
giving words back,
finalizing kisses
swept across the skin.
Fickle hearts move on
never remembering a name
the reason, or last time
love stroked Eden’s cradle.
Infernal fires rained down
closing doors,
never knowing
the side
a place, a corner
where hurt felt like
a last breath,
seedy back lot rooms,
before dawn gave way
to ghostly stains.
(Photo above was taken on our Jim Thorpe train ride along side the river...looks mild right?)
Saturday, May 15, 2010
Texas Skies
Tiny white clouds dot big blue Texas skies like mesquite and tumbleweeds
blowing along old highways- taking shape like a woman
catching a glance from a tall and lanky cowboy
who smiles and tips his hat leading to conversation
laced with flirtation and a nudge become an encounter and
a beer down at the local bar; maybe a scoot
across the saw dust dance floor, where he pulls her in close
giving off a hint he wants more, as his face leans into hers
loneliness, maybe love brings on a lingering kiss, something
either may or may not were looking for at the night’s end
morning light exposes a scene of rustled blankets, musty
bed sheets, an empty room over time filled with vast memories
like life under big blue Texas skies dotted with pretty
white clouds taking on shapes, reminding us of so many things.
© E. Stelling
Sunday, May 9, 2010
Today
I have stared at this blank screen for two days, and ghosts just fill it's space with brief moments of familiarity
My words are scattered about the pastures I keep, they cannot be wrangled no matter how I hard I try to swing the rope out in a circular movement
The faces of the innocent only comfort me for a short while, a child's life is trapped between a time continuum, but can never be contained as it seeps slowly out into blank space
Not a day goes by I do not think of my mother, my grandmothers, my daughter, my friends I have lost to some disease, or simply times final hour
Saturday morning I got some sleep in spite of our coughing from bronchitis, and felt halfway decent
Only to find out news was kept from me for obvious reason- Lisa has less than a year to live. Her pancreas is eaten up with cancer, and she is younger than me
Joe will share in this aching pain of loss that goes hand in hand with a hideous headless demon we call death
Have my words hidden in the pot holes of happiness, where the demon rears its ugly head to remind us we are merely temporary gardeners over seeing beauty bloom in the field one season at a time
White is the darkest color I have ever seen- I wonder what color will I find here tomorrow
Saturday, April 17, 2010
Black Horse Riding
While walking along fields of green
hands sliding along summer wheat
winds rose up and brought with it;
a black horse with no rider…
“Could I be of assistant” I asked
Wanting a drink, and
a good roll in the hay he’d state
We began to discuss his purpose, and
good Christian ways…
He warned me of dark skies
shots ringing out like thunder
riding in on east winds
making our way through streets of hate, and
judgment…and then he sang…
We’ve Left children crying
Fathers, sons, brothers are dying
Mothers left in pools of red
Death is all around us
No reason for war hurling in our heads…
Off he rode, black stead, no rider
back to a hill of white stone and rubble
winter coming… peace to sow
light shines now, to the north east
where streets once flowed with clear water
Children will walk the fields of green
winds may rise up
bringing messages from the north east
peace and songs they will share
“Bless my lucky star, a black horse will take you only so far”…
We’ve Left children crying
Fathers, sons, brothers are dying
Mothers left in pools of red
Death is all around us
No reason for war, a black stead once said…
© E Stelling, 2/13/08
Saturday, April 10, 2010
If your going to go- go all the way...
Reading, hearing Bukowski's work in the past week, is like remembering advice my dad would give about wasting time by going to college, traveling the world, love, living life...'roll the dice' to him meant the bottom of the bottle, seems a similar path Charles took...a loosing game, no matter how you rolled it...
if you’re going to try, go all the
way.
otherwise, don’t even start.
if you’re going to try, go all the
way.
this could mean losing girlfriends,
wives, relatives, jobs and
maybe your mind.
go all the way.
it could mean not eating for 3 or 4 days.
it could mean freezing on a
park bench.
it could mean jail,
it could mean derision,
mockery,
isolation.
isolation is the gift,
all the others are a test of your
endurance, of
how much you really want to
do it.
and you’ll do it
despite rejection and the worst odds
and it will be better than
anything else
you can imagine.
if you’re going to try,
go all the way.
there is no other feeling like
that.
you will be alone with the gods
and the nights will flame with
fire.
do it, do it, do it.
do it.
all the way
all the way.
you will ride life straight to
perfect laughter, its
the only good fight
there is.
- Charles Bukowski
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