Tired, but not hungry...

'Michelle...Thank you for staying in touch with me after I left Dallas. You were the best Sous Chef I have ever had in the kitchen. I love you like the daughter I wished I could have. You are funny, sweet, and a hard worker. You are beautiful. I look forward to growing old with you at my side. Oh, and leave it up to you to tell Robert our secrets, but hey, if he cannot handle how I am then he does not deserve me, does he....' ~your friend, Elizabeth



I really have been sleeping well this past week. We have been going to bed only one hour earlier than we do in New Jersey, but I have not had to take my sleep medication at all.

Worn out? Possibly...

I am not sure, but it sure feels nice. Well, that was until last night when hubby and I went to eat at a Epicurean World Master Chef Society Dinner in Denton.

Country clubs are a 'to do' in these parts, and this country club was no different!

The closer you get to Denton or Fort Worth, the closer you get to the 'Ranch' attitude. They love their golf (only two reasons for country clubs), and they love their expensive dinners. Not to mention the accent gets thicker, and I AM a Fort Worth girl if you did not know. I even noticed my accent has gotten thicker just listening to them all.

Well, back to the story...

Dinner was fantastic! The only problem is that we had eaten a heavy lunch with another friend, and then attended the country club dinner put on by my group of Texas Chef Association friends. Too Much! So, now between seeing all my friends, the good food, and good sleep I was doing fantastic...that is...until this morning.

I am tired, but not hungry...

I went to bed late, got up super duper early, went back to bed, and my cell phone has rang off the hook. Of course, leave it up to me to bring it into the bedroom last night. I have been leaving it in their living room, or on the table. That way if it rang; it would not wake us up.

Today is my birthday, and everyone is calling to wish me a fabulous one. Believe you me...it is the best. I have laughed, and smiled so much.

Next month is the anniversary of my daughters ninth year of passing.

Why such a sad note?

Well, because...I realize on this trip that I have so much to look forward to. A husband who loves me more than his gadgets, well, almost. A son who is doing well, and we have a great relationship. Friends who want me to be in their lives, and who have been supportive even if they have not been around when I felt it was important.

I am happy...

I love my daughter more than life itself sometimes, but I love myself more than I thought I did. I was ready to face my demons here in Texas, and it proved to be successful.

Happiness is a choice, and you will never go hungry...grow a little weary sometimes. Just go take a nap now and then...